Last night me and Kaka went super healthy and made some Russian Borch soup (after all, we are Russian.. according to everyone else that is). And lets ignore the fact that we had scones and sweets as dessert. After that we had a very relaxing evening, with the usual jokes… I can’t imagine how we appear to other people when we’re together. Insane? Even my man, who usually isn’t very sane himself, thinks we’re a bit too weird. Hm, going to miss her heaps and heaps when I’m away!
Anyway, I must say that this fall has been such a nice period of time. I’ve been happy and there hasn’t been any drama at all. Quite a differnce if I compare to last year when I was surrounded by unfriendliness, if I put it that way. I went mad! When I look back I actully feel anxious, and when I think about all the people and all the stupid things everyone did or said, it feels like a movie. It sure has left it’s marks…
My point is though, that after rain comes sunshine. And the sun is really shining now. Haven’t been happier in a while!
So for all you out there struggeling with whatever it may be, don’t give up! There is a light at the end of the tunnel! It may seem far away, but when you reach the end you’re happy that you never gave up!
It’s dark, it’s cold, I’ve got a cold & I work too much… normally this would mean depression time but there is luckily something called the light at the end of the tunnel. And no, it’s not a train like Strangnas Kommun, the light is a vacation that starts tomorrow in a country far, far, far away.
I thought this morning, how would I manage to work all winter without knowing that there is something better waiting for me? I would have comitted suicide.
So how do people do it? I mean the rest, at my work for exaple, who are not going anywhere. Just stuck here. For years and years. Routine.
I can’t do routines. I don’t have the dedication or will to do something over and over again without the thought that I need to move on very soon. Perhaps that’s why I’ve gone to 11 different schools.. maybe.
Anyway, tonight I’m meeting up my cookie for dinner and some help with packing. And then tomorrow my lovely man is coming with me to the airport… he’s the best!
Latersssss
Can’t believe it my last day off tomorrow?!!! Work for 4 days and I’m leaving for sun and beaches! Ahhh, take me there now please.
Yesterday I went out for some drinks with Maria at Nobu, was a calm and nice evening with great conversations about life. Somehow that changed and I found myself at a strip club! Haha, it was the funniest thing ever – really! Not that I’m into girls or anything but if was quite fascinating!
Well, atleast I can check that off my “things I should do before I die”-list!
Tonight I’m having a night in with my man eating some nice food and I bought some lovely haagen dazs! After all, it is Thursday!
Xoxoxoxoooooo
(A lady with a real yellow big snake at Jet black.. not the strip club)
Is it wierd that I want to make scambled eggs in the middle of the night? Or maybe it’s because I’m starving at the moment?
I’ve been trying to cut down on my suger intake since I realized it’s a bit above the recomended intake. And then my dear boyfriend started to tell me stories about diabetes and insulin (he studies nutrition & health for those who don’t know) so now I’m scared. Suger is my worst enemy but at the same time my biggest love.
How come all those things that you like so so so much, are the ones that makes most harm to you?
Do you think it has something to do with psychology?
I overheard this really interesting conversation the other day. A girl was talking about this meditation camp she visited for a week where she was questioned about how she was feeling. And when she said “good” they askes how “good” feels.
She was so impressed by how she discovered that our mind might feel one think, but our body something completely different and you can go to the bottom of by simply thinking deep of what it is that you feel and why.
So how do I feel today?
I feel good but at the same time stressed. Like I’ve forgotten something. Perhaps anxious… worried.
So why do I feel this way?
I have no idea.
Well, that was it…. I guess.
Nighty
How come Mondays never start good?
It started that I woke up 87362 times during the night because I had the worst nightmare ever. It was just really sick… can’t believe my mind would make so awful things up.
Then I woke up at 7am for work and guess, the bus doesn’t show up until 15 min later. And it’s super crowded. And there are roadworks. And I get to work 20 min late.
Yeah, great start I must say.
Hopefully the rest of the day will get better. Not having my hopes up too high.
Evija
Oh no. It just hit me… reality.
Simply don’t understand how I got here, to this point in my life? I have no willpower at all and still I’ve managed with so much? I must have had such a simple life so far? Or perhaps it has been luck? Coincidence? Or has my life just alrady been planned by someone above me and I can fail and quit how much I want – I will succeed anyway?
I really don’t understand.
My personality really sucks.. I’m a human person, I understand people and feel for them and cry with them and blablabla, and no one ever cries with me. Everyone seems to be so full of willpower and they want to fight for everything. And still so many don’t succeed even though they have tried so so so hard.
And here am I. With no interest in doing more than expected and still I manage to do so well. I should still be living at home, with no job, no degree, no money and no future plans.
Thank you God, Buddha, Allah, Shiva and all 3598673 other Gods and Godesses.
For some people the weekend is the time to relax. Except for me. Ever since I agreed on this 4-days on, 4-days off thing at work, I’ve been doing weekends all the time. Not that I’m complaining.
Anyway, I’ve felt the past few weeks that I really want to make everything clear around me. And I realized along the way that I rather have one or two friends that I trust, that have myself surrounded by a lot of people who are fake, mean or simply untrustworthy.
When it comes to friendship, it’s not about quantity but quality. I don’t want to be a person who keeps people in mind just because I’m afraid of being alone or simply because I love thought of having a lot of friends.
I don’t understand people who think that way and I don’t think I’d ever be abel to trust someone who thinks that way.
Bless.
First of all I must say that I’ve had such a great week… doing pretty much nothing. Met a few friends, been out and about, had wine & cheese nights umtil 5am. What I’m trying to say is that it’s been a blast. Tomorrow the fun comes to an end though and I have to get my ass to work. Y. e. y.
Anyway, my dear mother called me with a surprise. Well, it wasn’t planned.. the decision was kind of made during our conversation (my spontaneous side is obvisoulsy inharited from my mother).
She simply said after a while “Hey, don’t you wanna check if there are any flights from London to Thailand? Maybe you can come down for a week or so while we’re there”.
No questions asked, I booked my ticket straight ahead. So now, all of a sudden, I’m going to Thailand for 7 days next week haha. I like.
Anyway, better sleep now.
It doesnt happen to often that I get to see some sunshine on my days off.. but today was such a nice day. Went for some food shopping and it was soooo warm, didn’t have to wear a jacket.
Been watching Gossip Girl with my man today and now he fell asleep with his legs and arms around me. Can’t almost move so I guess I’m stuck here.
Kaka is also coming by soon, we’re gonna have a wine and cheese night on my balcony (if it doesnt get too cold that is).
