Thanksgiving

Oh no. It just hit me… reality.

Simply don’t understand how I got here, to this point in my life? I have no willpower at all and still I’ve managed with so much? I must have had such a simple life so far? Or perhaps it has been luck? Coincidence? Or has my life just alrady been planned by someone above me and I can fail and quit how much I want – I will succeed anyway?

I really don’t understand.

My personality really sucks.. I’m a human person, I understand people and feel for them and cry with them and blablabla, and no one ever cries with me. Everyone seems to be so full of willpower and they want to fight for everything. And still so many don’t succeed even though they have tried so so so hard.

And here am I. With no interest in doing more than expected and still I manage to do so well. I should still be living at home, with no job, no degree, no money and no future plans.

Thank you God, Buddha, Allah, Shiva and all 3598673 other Gods and Godesses.